Title: scolaire cara duinn saol

Gender: Female

Age: 34

Sun Sign: Cancer

Chinese Sign: Wood Tiger

Location: Arizona

As I walked in a dream, I could not begin to imagine what my life would be now.  Despite the endless views of the ocean, the ever climbing mountains..oh how I longed to be part of it all.  Nevermind that I already was.  The mind itself was too narrow, too confined to see the whole.  Thus it fell short of my expectations, and my goals were somehow lost along the way.  I forgot how to dream, how to laugh, how to sing.  I forgot the poetic beauty of life as a whole.

Not anymore…no never again.  Alive, so fully alive.  I can see so very clearly where I have been, and I can say goodbye.  It has indeed made up a part of me, but there is so much more ahead.

I've been the weeping mother, longing for the return of her babe.  I've wished for that one more moment to hold my infant son.  I have walked into the very depths of pain and allowed them to swallow me whole. 

Then I woke up, and I took a step forward.  This step soon became another step, and I found that I had been left with a glorious gift.  I would never again take a moment, not one second for granted.  That has made all the difference. 

Does this speak of me?  Is this what one passes as an introduction, a glimpse into the soul?  Perhaps, perhaps my thoughts wander a bit too much for the standard of a greeting.  But they are me, just as much as any physical feature.  They skip, take detours, and sometimes completely derail.  Though somehow, they always find their way back to some semblance of reason and rhyme.  Mayhaps this is why I enjoy writing poetry when the mood strikes me?

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine I would birth ten children, ten!  Can you imagine?  I couldn't, and yet I have.  I have seen ten beautiful babies enter this world, aww what a precious precious gift.  I would not trade it for anything.  Yes, there are days when life is less than calm, but where would be the challenge.  Ten children, you say?  I have eight girls, one boy, and one son forever gone from this physical plane…then again perhaps not forever, but certainly gone from this circle of the wheel.

I share all of this with my best friend, my soul mate, the one I am thrilled to be growing old with, my husband, my other half, the love of my life.  Indeed, my life has become more than I ever imagined it would.  More than I ever dreamed it could.  To have a full family and a man I can talk with about anything and everything and nothing…*sigh*  I believe this would be called bliss.

And then…well then I found this place, this sacred place that has allowed me to open anew, desire to step out of the shell, and say a warm hello.

This is me, you get what you see…

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